Iron[wo]man. I have too much time on my hands. Or not enough. I’m not entirely sure. Continue reading
Years ago I spent a lot of money on a DSLR camera. Since that purchase, I have used the camera enough times to warrant the purchase, but I have not moved forward in pursuit of bettering my photography skills. This year, I hope to fix that. Granted, these photos are mediocre, but I’m hoping throughout the year I will improve.
I’ll be posting probably once a week, even though I’ll be taking the pictures daily. Maybe if I’m feeling particularly adventurous, I’ll post the pictures after I take them. I wouldn’t recommend holding your breath for that one though.
The challenge is called Capture Your 365, and I’ll be tagging it as such despite the fact that this year will have 366 days in it.
I’ve been gone for awhile now
Lost in my mind
I’ve whispered secrets not allowed
Can you hear my cry?
It’s a shame you are no longer here
Did you know the time?
I fear the end has come, my dear
Let’s embrace our last flight.
You might want to step back, because I’m about to get all sorts of personal on your dash.
I’m sorry, that ridiculous pun sounded a lot better in my head. Getting to the point though, I’m just going to give you a brief overview of what is going on in my life, and what that will mean for my blog.
A couple of weeks ago I was hired on for a full-time phone customer service position. Not a big deal, and I don’t start until early to mid February which means nothing has changed as of yet. I don’t know what my shift is, and I won’t know until the middle of March what it will be. As it stands now, that one job won’t change much when it comes to posting.
The thing that might make my posts more sporadic is the fact that I will be looking for a part-time position as well. I know what you’re thinking, “Johana! A part-time and full-time job isn’t going to occupy all of your time.” Okay, maybe you’re not thinking that, but if you are then I’d have to say that you would be right. Keep in mind we have to factor in time for sleep as well as time for eating and exercising. That shaves a bit more off my available hours within any given week. Once again that is not what I am worried about, I’m more worried about the fact that I am also going to continue going to school full-time. With my procrastination techniques firmly in place, I do believe my posts will be limited. I’m hoping for once a week at least. We will see how well that works out.
Just wanted to keep you updated as I continue on in my endeavors of paying my bills and getting educated. With any luck I’ll be able to make it to graduate school with only a bit left to pay on my car.
Why did nobody tell me adult life was going to be so stressful?
It’s funny how I feel the need to justify my writing. I’m practically apologizing for being human and making mistakes anytime a person finds even the most minor of flaws within my creative works. Hell, I’d probably do the same thing here on my blog. It doesn’t really make sense. I should not feel the need to make excuses for something I put so much effort into, because the fact of the matter is the person is trying to help me. Have I mentioned that I’m terrible at accepting help?
Maybe I should rewind.
Recently, I gave my mom the first two chapters of a novel I wrote. This novel has gone through a series of edits, and I finally got to the point where I decided I was going to redo the entire thing. I gave my mother a copy of the renewed draft, so even though it’s way different than the previous one it is still rough. When I came over for dinner with my family, my mom asked if she could write on it. I don’t know why I took it so personally, but I began to feel bad that I had given someone something so unpolished. I shouldn’t feel bad. I’m sharing. She asked to see this, because she’s proud of me or whatever. I don’t need to make excuses. I know this. Yet I do it anyway.
It’s a side effect of me constantly thinking my writing is sub par. I need to break this habit, because I don’t need to be perfect. Comparing myself to others is not going to do me any good, because how boring would it be if everyone wrote the same.
This is where I make a point to start finding the beauty in my style and owning it. Because I’m never going to be anyone other than myself.
~ Johana Spade.
It’s really a little bit embarrassing how long it has been since I have last posted. Actually, it is even more embarrassing how long it has been since I last even logged in. I’ve been meaning to, I really have. Intentions don’t really lead to actions I have discovered. The longer it took me to come back and post the more I started putting it off because I was ashamed. Now I’m making this post, however short it might be, to get back in the grove of things. This post is acting as my apologies to those of you who have ever enjoyed a post of mine, or that I have become friends with. I never meant for my absence to become this extensive.
I have a full-time job now, a part-time job, and I am still going to school but I’m going to find the time because I’m determined. And really, how hard could a 200 word post be when I’m writing 3-4 papers a week. That’s all I’m saying.
So in other words
Sometimes I think I set myself up for failure. It’s embarrassing really, how long it has been since I have posted. I have had ideas of course, small snippets of thoughts I could turn into what I would hope might become a thought provoking post, but every time that I went to write them down or type them up I would come up with a blank. I have only one excuse with which to place the blame upon:
Yes, it has taken all my attention, and even completing my homework assignments have become more of a chore because I’m so immersed within my story that I don’t want to take the time to write down anything but. From that description you might think that I was on par for my word count, you’d be wrong. I’m dreadfully behind, but I do have plans to catch up within this last week of writing. After all, I’ve done it before, I can do it again. Hopefully.
Pushing all thoughts of NaNoWriMo aside I wanted to come on here and check in with everyone. It feels like I don’t even know what is happening in the blogosphere anymore, and that is not a feeling I like.
Over the last few weeks I have been writing, but more than that I have been working. My job affords me the ability to see all kinds of students in different settings. Some of these settings are stressful, and some of the students are aggravating, but it’s all manageable. I had one particular eighth grade boy who had quite the mouth on him, but that is a story for another time.
I also went to see Mockingjay, because I am quite obsessed with The Hunger Games trilogy. I’m quite obsessed with a lot of things actually, so that’s not really news.
And I somehow lost the point of this post within the brief update of my life. What have you all been during the month of November? If there are any posts/events you want me to check out send me a link and I’ll be sure to comment and like them. It might be a while before I see them otherwise, because I tend to get a bit sidetracked. Obviously.
If you could slow down an action that usually zooms by, or speed up an event that normally drags on, which would you choose, and why?
As an avid believer of there not being enough time in the day, I have to say that if given the choice, I would be set on slowing things down. Even if it were only for a moment. The activities I partake in that tend to drag on are not boring enough for me to speed them up.
I once mentioned that if I were to have a super power it would be to control time, and there are many reasons for that.
If I could control time I could hit the pause button and write for as long as I want to without losing any hours in the day. I could slow down the moments of the day I spend with my nephew, because they are few and far between. With this power I could go back in time to reminisce over the long lost memories that I may have forgotten. I can cherish my loved ones much more, and take trips into the time I had with them when I can’t spare a moment.
That is the reason I would never chose to speed up time, because even during those moments that seem to drag it is worth it to spend time in my thoughts.
If the dictionary started putting in pictures of people next to definitions you would find mine under indecisive and excessive. The first one is fairly obvious as to why, at least I’m assuming it is, but to put it simply I have problems deciding on one thing. It can be tied into excessive because instead of just two or three things I tend to have a list larger than normal. The double digits usually suit me better. I’m a bit excessive like that.
That being said, I will try to get my list down to a more manageable level.
After much struggle and debate I realized that I know why I’m here. I know what I want to accomplish, and those are my essential goals. Putting them into words was a little more challenging though.
- I want to become a stronger writer. Through publishing pieces two to three times a week, at least, I hope to gain momentum in my writing.
- Because every writer needs a following I want to increase my daily hit count by at least 15% come the start of 2015. Knowing people are reading my work just makes me feel warm inside, and if they decide to start following me that is even better.
- Finally, I hope to spend an hour or so each week running through the blogosphere. There are so many great bloggers out there, and my hope is that I can befriend some more of them as the time goes on.
While these seem to be fairly easy goals upon first glance, I know that they are going to be challenging. They require time and effort, and there are certain days when I don’t feel like I have enough of either. Setting these goals and putting them out there for all to see should help to keep me motivated on task.
There is so much that I keep trying to do on the day to day, I just need to keep taking it one step at a time. I’ll get there sooner or later.